Miles away .

Monday, November 2, 2009

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OUCH.
didnt know it could hurt that bad.
shit.

forget it. gonna go spend some quality time with my dear maaalatheee.
byyyye!

i guess i was too naive, huh?
pretty shocking, i guess?

Labels: i. am. fine.

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(5:43 PM)

Friday, October 30, 2009

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WHERE OH WHERE CAN MY BABY BE

had been spending days with the girls these days.. hahaha. crapped alot, played alot and its just pure carefree life. fun, joy & laughter. hahaha . if only such moments could last as long as it can. i feel so tired whenever the thought of the extra lessons during the hols just struck my mind sometimes. im lazy and tired of going back to the books and sitting in class during lessons and all -.- zz. so borinnnngggg righhhhht. pft.

hahah, but anyways, today was the Dikir Barat performance and i think we did not too bad. kinda screwed up abit here and there, but i guess, overall was okay. hahah, really proud of ourselves. im sooo goonna miss alot of thingggs ): the practices, shouting and pissed off moments. HAHA, AND OBVIOUS-GOSSIP SESSIONS with the girls. LOL! was great, and definitely, this performance will be etched in my mind 4eva. hahhhh!

zz. i dont know, i just think that you are doing certain things on purpose to get me away.. it hurts so bad. and i dont know why, although it still hurts so much, im just going on with it. why oh why. don't stop/comfort me, cause we both know that when certain things happened, nothing can ever heal the broken heart.

(no, im not pretending to be emo or what shit. im just voicing out how i feel. thoughts may wander anywhere when the moment comes)

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(8:47 PM)

Saturday, October 24, 2009

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MIGRAINE. AND THERE IS NO MEDICINE.

all the medicine that my doc prescribed me is gone. i have no idea where it is. and mom accused me of overdosing myself -.- and now, this stupid migraine is acting up again.. and im forcing myself to sleep, but i can't. im feeling kinda torn up inside, and just afraid of certain things. & im waiting for my sister to come back so i can tell her my problems, but she's not home yetttt. tried to play bejeweled while waiting for her, and its not helping cause my head is gonna burst anytime!

ahhh. how bad can this get.. zz. and im just so afraid . i dont know if im paranoid or what, but i am just scared ): i tried to drown everything into my sleep, but those images keep appearing in my mind and i cant sleep, though im feeling so sleepy and all, and even though ive been sleeping for like more than 12 hours this week! >.< I HATE THIS KINDA SITUATION. and adding on, i have to wake up early tomorrow -.- zzzzzzzzzzzzz.

fine, i shall stop ranting and force my head under my pillow.
goodbye!

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(11:11 PM)

Friday, October 23, 2009

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helllow.

hahh. i guess things are just not the way it has to be. there are many other things that one have to achieve before getting what they want. its pretty sad actually that just because of 1 important thing, the other strong points are abandoned and in the end, everybody has to give it up. we both know what we feel for each other, but for the sake of those "things", i guess we'll just have to give it up afterall. sighs.

it's okay, i guess im going to take it easy! :D .
not too sure if i can or not. but im gonna try to do it cause i have to see certain things everyday, and if i have not, things will get really bad.

anywayyyyys, results are back! rather shocked at some, seriously. like my humans! hahah . "holidays" are finally hereee! some plans are done, some are carried out and i had fun ! ^^ hm, okie. gotta go for "hunting" already. LOL, byebye .

i think my post is rather general. so, dont think too much uh. and i think some people wont get what im trying to say, but yea, its okay . i dont know what im talking abt also.

btw, im not sure. is it just me being sensitive, or paranoid?

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(9:25 PM)

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

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3/7 CHALET.

it was not too bad . rather fun with all the screaming, laughter, pissed off moments, gossiping & all. so, briefly describe..

firstly, met up with the committee members, got the food. ate something light and slack around.. then booked in, played cards and all . ahahah, then playplayplayplay. took lotsa pictures! vb, and bbq after that. thennn, haunted house . was not bad luh, thanks for the effort put in :D then, rushed to movies . took cab with 7 peopleee! :D hahaha. it was niiiice. then, ran here and there to get drinks, but all shops closed -.- we gotta settle with MINERAL WATER. hahah oh ya, before that was took some neoprints with the girls aft gazillion years!

then watched 500 days of summer which was rather unique and worth watching! and got lost while walking back to the chalet. hhaha, was already rather tired & sleepy aft that. played truth or dare, cards, short ghost story-telling. sunrise, and rested for an hour! breakfast at mac and homesweethome. was already so exhausted laaa -.----

yup, OVERALL, THE CHALET'S AWESOME! thanks for all the fun, joy & laughter, 3/7! see ya tomorrow, lucks for all the results! (& i need that the most -.-)

nap wasn't nice -.- kept waking up for stupid reasons. feeling abit sick and freakin' tired now. hopefully to make it to school tomorrow! hahah .

hahah, alright, im gonna open my bills for this monthhh . hahah, ive been controllinggggg!

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(8:34 PM)

Sunday, October 18, 2009

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ECP WITH BABYGIRLS!

was awesome . LOL. and everybody is gonna kill malathe on wednesday. but overall, the outing was a blast, and everybody had fun. hahaha, yaaaa, WE SAW VASANTHAM STAR at VIVO! :D
andddd, the taxi driver was nice, and the whole cycling thing was a killer. yea, and i am badly burnt by the sun . thanks alot. hm, other details abt the trip is in the people's bloggggs. so, just hop around ! gotta rush. byeee.

all unglam, FORCED POUT pictures are in fb and some blogs. hahaha!
p.s ; the shades belongs to natasha. (and i am forced to put it on)
HAHA. AND I HAD LOTSA FUN.
THANKS GIRLS FOR BEING SUCH IRRITATING PEOPLE THAT CAN CRACK EVERYBODY.
SORRY MEIQI, FOR YOUR LOSS (:

ANDDD. LOVE YOU GIRLS!

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(10:55 PM)

Friday, October 9, 2009

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THAT IS JUST SO OBVIOUS.

sometimes, i think people should really think twice before doing things that may hurt others. yeah, it can apply to ANYTHING. so pls dont claim that im a loser here or sth -.- but anyway, many things are always appearing right in front of my face, and everytime it does, it doesn't hurt as much as it used to be. perhaps, im just used to it as i am consistently avoiding myself from it, and i guess, it is already a habit to do so. though i still think that, certain things are better left unknown.

yeah, and the more you're trying to show sympathy, or guilt, the more i feel that you're a sucker.

hahahah. okaaay. whatever. so had been studying i guess? and its so last minute and i feel that it IS important to start revising earlier on and not just a day before the paper -.- it has always worked for me, but i guess, im wrong, for now. zz. been sleeping late, waking up early and all.. haha, not my fault that i can only absorb stuffs at night -.- yeah, looks like The Eyebags are gonna get heavier ): hahah ! but anyways, totally gave up for SS. rather disappointed for geog -.- guess gonna flunk some subjs this EYE.

oh well . not gonna whine, just gotta try to work hard. besides, i dont think there is such word as stupidity. everyone is given the same tools, is just whether you are willing to take it up, or not. so don't look down on people just because your results are like the top in the universe or sth (:

I WANNA WATCH SEX&THECITY AGAIN CAUSE IT TEACHES ME ALOT OF THINGS AND GIVES ME HOPE. (not abt the sex part pls -.-)

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(7:30 PM)